emotional exhaustion
I didn’t realize how emotionally exhausted I was yesterday until about an hour before I was supposed to meet friends to see Sunshine Cleaning. Being so tired, I decided it was best to reschedule our plans for another night. I’m glad I did because thetiniestspark told me via Twitter that while the movie was great, it was very emotional — and I probably wouldn’t have been strong enough to get through an emotional film yesterday.
For the most part, the day felt completely normal. As usual, I sat on the couch in the living room with my laptop, the TV set to NBC and the dog lounging at the front door. It wasn’t until late afternoon that I started feeling anxious for my husband. Realizing that we wouldn’t be making dinner and watching Dancing with the Stars: The Results together created a pit of sadness in my stomach. Then I worried, “What on Earth am I going to make myself for dinner? Cereal?”
J, hurry home. My diet {and my heart} suffers when you’re not here.
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I so understand. Deployments are draining and you don’t even realize how so until it’s too late.
I can’t even pretend to say I know exactly what you’re feeling but knowing how I feel when Hillsy leaves for a business trip… and then multiply that by 200, I can somehow get a tiny sense of what you must be feeling. Thanks for sharing, I hope it gets a little better knowing that one day down is a day closer to being together again. x Marichelle
So true. I’ve often found myself crying over a bowl of cereal for this exact same reason.